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You left as fast as you came. Whispering in my ear.

I found James. Now James is gone.

La force inestimable des sentiments enfouis

Dont le simple mot peut déclencher un cataclysme.

This song speaks to my most deep self for it is every word I’ve been longing to write these past few years.
It is the closure I never had, the one I never seemed to deserve.

I didn’t realize until now that in order to be with you I had to forget everything I was before, everything we were, every little thing I wished.

And if you’re in love, then you are the lucky one,
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun,
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I’m forever missing him.

And you caused it,
And you caused it,
And you caused it

 


I even forgot his face.

(Source: Spotify)

My tumblr is a long love letter to you…

…the kind that you’ll never read.

  • 12 avril 2012

"I wanna listen to Iron & Wine while crawling into your arms."

  • 28 juillet 2011

"You are the best thing"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=vJ3xTjvj9tw

  • 30 juin 2011

"Animal Baby"

So you want to be my friend,

But my best friends don’t bring out their claws

So you want to play pretend
But my best friends don’t bring out their claws

And I really wanted you,
And I was hoping that you wanted me too
I really wanted you but it’s all over now.

  • 27 et 7 avril 2011

"I guess that is all" x "Not Today"

  • 6 mars 2011

"Dear …,

In the past year, I’ve forced you to despite me so much you wouldn’t even talk to me. You don’t care anymore. I’m sorry for that. I know it’s my fault. I’ve let my ego get in the way of what I felt. I could have been patient, waiting for the moment you’d realize I may be good for you. I couldn’t stand myself, knowing I could have loved you before if only I had not been so blind. 

Now it’s too late. I hope one day you’ll realize I don’t mess up as much as I seem. I guess it’s just you. I couldn’t bear knowing you were letting me go without doing something about it. I pushed you too hard, I’m the only one to blame.

It’s just that… I remember the night we were listening to Brett Dennen in my bed and it makes me missing you more.”

  • 5 décembre 2010

"After all"

I like you too much after too little time. I hold back my heart’s crazy rambling. The fear that I should overwhelm your smile frightens the spiders inside me. Oh this could be magic after all, after all…

  • 7 novembre 2010

"Love lost"

Keep me in mind. When you’re ready, I am here to take you every time.

 

  • 13 novembre 2009

"Wow. Oh oh oh. Oh oh oh.
I can never belong to you.”

  • 8 novembre 2009

"Oh ! We’ve got everywhere to go you should sleep I’ll see you in the morning."

 

Maybe it’s not a love letter after all.

Time flies

It seems that every She&Him’s song is for Me&You.

Slowly, tenderly, we’ve written the words that they sing and secretly I’ve whispered some melodies in your ears.

You have yet to hear them.

Volume One :

  •  Change is Hard 

I’m all outta luck but what else could I be ? I know he’s yours and he’ll never belong to me again. I did him wrong. So don’t brag, keep it to yourself. I did him wrong. I was never no, never no, never enough but I can try, I can try to toughen up.”

  • I was made for you 

Cause I have been waitin’ for a long, long time for a boy like you. I won’t be waitin’ any more cause I know. Baby, baby I was made for you”.

 Volume Two : 

  • I’m gonna make it better :

I know it all comes full circle, it all comes crashing down on you. Hide in your heart chase it til the morning. Sunlight is lost in your eyes, you never tried facing these things. Walking on a circle taking staking on a stride, faces are not what they seem. I always dream facing the tide. I know it all comes full circle. It all comes crashing down on you. I’m gonna make it make it better. I’m gonna get the best lock it and swallow the key”

  •  Don’t look back :

You can work but you can’t let go. Oh, oh but you have to know, don’t look back, all you’ll ever get is the dust from the steps before. I don’t have to see you every day, but I just want to know you’re there”

Volume 3 : 

  • I could’ve been your girl :

It doesn’t matter, if I were willing. It doesn’t matter that the lights are tender love. Oh, oh, I know you have to go. It doesn’t matter, I fought my heart It’s broken, shattered to a million and one. 'Cause I could’ve been your girl and you could’ve been my four leaf clover. If I could do it over I’d send you the pillow that I cry on. It doesn’t matter, I just begun. And if you see me, just move on. 'Cause we are free and never meant to be”

And last but not least…

You keep trying to forget about the good times does it make you fall a little better ? I’m not alone, I only pick the flowers, kind of makes you feel a little worthier. But the chillin turn out fine,I got the pieces if you got the time. 


And I want you, I don’t wanna forget 
If you go I’ll surely get distracted 
And I want you, I don’t wanna forget 
If you go I’ll surely get distracted. 
I want you, somebody sweet to talk to, 
Somebody sweet to talk to.”

 

4 years later, we are still unable to write our own words.

Wish to do the same

And to forget you.

Rain isn’t twice the same but still adore you 
Redo all again, just decide to go to bed 
You recline your head too 

Wish over again to dare to phone you 
Somewhere on the rain, I wish to see you 

Wish that I resing and decide to go to bed 
You recline your arms too 

Wish I, wish I could drown 
Damn why am I so cold ?

Fontanelle - Girls in Hawaii

Lomo Kino, essai n°1.

So walk with me
On this new spring morning
I’ll walk you ‘till your fears are none
I’m a new baby weeping
I’m the flower you’re keeping
That without love will wilt and die

02 Décembre 2007


Il est plus facile d’écrire les choses que de les comprendre.
Je suis entrain d’écrire une nouvelle chanson, et ça progresse.
Finalement, tout grandit, les mots, les gens, les esprits, tout.
Alors bon, grandir, c’est aussi apprendre à se détacher des gens qu’on aime, même si ça nous fait souffrir.
Juste pour te dire que je me suis mal exprimée mais que c’est comme ça, on savait très bien que ça arriverait. C’est juste plus facile de décider quand.
Un autre jour, une autre année, un autre moment. Tu auras grandi, et moi aussi. Et on sera grand, et on saura comment faire.
Love.

And now’s the time.


Je ne veux plus jamais aimer quelqu’un d’autre que toi.


Mon amour.